: 2010...

as i look back on the past year; many obstacles i have been faced with, and i have jumped over each one, inch by inch, and realized everything i was doing wrong to make it all right. i still have yet to figure out the reasoning behind any obstacle i faced, but in time i will eventually find the answers, and when i do find those answers i will more than likely have a new set of obstacles to face. life is nothing without obstacles; life isn't ever smooth sailing. whoever said it was, hasn't lived. mistakes are made, lessons are learned, life will go on; but if i could change a few mistakes i have made prior to this i would. if i could go back in time and do something over i would; do it better then i did or make it better then it was. nothing is perfect, just like i am not perfect. to avoid a situation to which i could make a mistake, could be a mistake in itself. afraid of falling in love, of course i am; now if the man of my dreams met me today and i avoided the chance to talk to him because i was scared, that in itself is a mistake. avoidance; what i am good at. avoiding fear, hurt, pain, love, sorrow; it's what i have always done; avoid things that can hurt me. but i am a new girl with an open mind, and my new years resolution is to look fear dead in the face and not avoid it; because what i could be fearing could be something so amazing and i from now on do not want to miss out on something amazing.