: new chapter.

the chapter "i don't know what the fuck i want to do with my life" closed about 2 years ago when i got accepted into the graduate program at FAU. it's funny how things happen, when you don't plan them. i remember i woke up one morning and said to myself "i want to go to graduate school". graduate school it was. i was accepted at FAU within 2 weeks of applying, and i went with it. looking back i remember thinking "what the hell am i getting myself into?" and now all i am thinking is "i got myself into something real good". the feeling i have is so surreal that i sometimes wonder if i am living in a dream world; but i'm not. this is my reality and i made it that way and couldn't be happier. for the past 2 years i have learned not only about the profession of social work but i have learned more about myself then i could ever imagine. i wouldn't trade the last 2 years for anything; to think i wanted to be married by now, boggles my mind. it was all part of my "master plan", to be married by 25 and perhaps start a family like the rest of the 25 and above year olds i know; but i wouldn't be where i am today if i had all of that. and that's not even important to me anymore. yes, i would love to have someone to share these special moments with, but i finally realized it's not about what others are doing, it's about what I'M doing. the past chapters in my life are closing, and i am starting a new one and there isn't a day that i won't look back and be grateful for those horrible chapters that some people may see as being "brutal" chapters. all the nervous breakdowns, sleepless nights, heartache, depression, bumps, bruisies and crying all led me to where i am now.

to the chapters that were "brutal", i thank you for molding me into a strong, dedicated and focused woman. to the master plan that never happened, i thank you for not happening. to the individuals who never left my side thru it all, i thank you for accepting my flaws and weaknesses, for you are a piece of what kept me going. to the ones who i met while taking this bumpy ride, i thank you for being part of it all. and to the past 2 years; i couldn't thank you enough for the opportunities you have given me. it's time to close this chapter and start a new one, but i will never forget you nor forget what you molded me into. you have given me hope; for i now know it's possible to wake up everyday and love life. i am ready to help others, for the past 2 years i have helped myself; so bring it on new chapters, i'm ready for you. <3