: i hope you read this...

there is only ONE person i would like to read this, and i hope she does read this; and i know when she reads it, if she does, she will know it's to her;

remember when we met? right off the bat we hit it off like we knew each other in a past life. a drunken night turned into a few more which in turn, turned into lunch dates, movies dates, dinner dates, all those friendship date things that gals seem to go on. and then, it turned into a beautiful friendship to which i could trust you with everything i had in me and a day never went by when you weren't there for me. we were inseparable for as long as i could remember; every weekend was me driving from my parents house going to your house; and then the weekend was complete because it was just you and i & the nights we never seemed to remember. within those nights of not remembering, it eventually would come to us. what i found was the most positive aspect of our friendship was that there was no judgement on the actions we made or decisions we made; and it's hard now a days to find a friend who doesn't judge what you do; and that's what i loved about our friendship. i never had to walk on eggshells; there was no effort put into our friendship, which is how a friendship should be; free and easy. moving away from you was hard; you were my rock for so long, and in the back of my mind i knew that we weren't going to be as close as we were before because of the distance and because i was starting a whole new life to which could interfere with my relationship with you. it was good, for the first few months of being away from home, we were able to visit each other a lot, even if it was for a day or two, we still got to see each other. i then noticed that things back home weren't going as they were when i left. people changed, and in tern, you changed. i am not saying that i didn't change, because i did; i grew as a person. i wish that because we were physically distant that it didn't effect us, but it did, we grew distant from one another and it kills me inside everyday knowing that i lost one of my best friends because of something i am not even aware of; i just wonder how we grew so apart? there isn't a day that goes by that you aren't in my mind. i constantly think about you and worry; and pray that you are happy as ever. if you're reading this, know that i miss you so dearly and hope that one day we can get back to where we left off...


love you,
d girl