i was talking with a friend tonight, to which i look up to; he has just the perfect amount of insight that has me leaving with an "aha" moment. we started getting into something that has been bothering me for the past 6 months now; rumors.
rumors start, let me re phrase, rumors are made about people in order for the person who started the rumor to feel better about themselves; some people get off on seeing other people miserable, which brings them to the point where they are starting the most absurd rumors ever imaginable. now the person who is starting the rumor, i would call a sadist, gets off on inflicting pain on others and lives off of chaos. i am a bit guilty of living off chaos, because it has always been in my life, therefore i find comfort in some of the most chaotic situations, but that's besides the point. i'm talking rumors were started about me, that ruined everything for me; ruined a job, ruined relationships with my fellow colleagues, ruined a friendship, and even ruined my life so to say for a short while. when rumors start around here in this little town, they tend to grow into the craziest shit, and once it's time to tackle those rumors, it's me against the rumors; and let's just say i don't win. it's a sad thing when a girl like me has her head on correctly and tightly and rumors are spread, assumptions are made, yet the people who are being believed are the ones who started the rumors. these individuals who have started the rumors, are very bright individuals, bright in a sense that they can manipulate the fuck out of any person they come in contact with; therefore, dani vs rumors is a loss for me. life's a fucking shit show and i am just getting shit on left and right while everyone is sitting back watching it.
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