: thoughts

within the past week, i have been jobless, and going from full time graduate school, to a full time job for a few months, to now being jobless has taken a toll on my mind; i have way too much time to think, to over analyze, to pick apart what i'm doing wrong in life, to pick apart the past, bla bla bla; you follow my drift. i still don't have the strength and power to control my thoughts-they get out of hand sometimes. i will find myself over analyzing a situation, that is so clear, for hours upon end, to realize that i just waisted my time over analyzing a situation that was clearer then broad daylight and there was no changing the situation. i have struggled for so long, finding ways to "shoo away" the thoughts in my head that don't need to be there, but for some reason, they always come back to me; like a bee seeking honey.

"We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves"

i find this quote to be true; if i think that i am going to be miserable because i don't have a job, i will turn into a miserable person because my thoughts will take over and i will slowly but surely start to become what i think. it is a revolving door. one must stop their thought process if it's going to affect who they are in a negative sense before it gets to the point where they have no idea how to get out of the hole. it's hard to shift a negative thought to a positive thought, because individuals are often times so blinded by the negativity in their life that they forget to see the positive in the situation, which can frame positive thoughts. so what i have been working on, is with every negative thought that comes to my mind, for instance "i am not good enough for him", i change it around so it sounds positive, i rationalize it, "i am good enough for him, he just isn't the right one". see how that works? just because a man doesn't want me, doesn't mean that i am not good enough, it just means that he perhaps isn't the right one. let's try another one "i will never find a job again"..."i will find a job, it just takes time, i should be grateful that i am not at my past job because i was miserable"--look at the positive in the situation of being jobless, you aren't working like a slave where you weren't appreciated. seems easy...takes a lot of practice. but i think that within every negative there is a positive, so i myself am going to work some more on changing my negative thoughts into positive; after all, who wants to become what we think? not i.