: anxiety's misleading; it's kosher, yet revealing

i was thinking all day today, why i feel so oddly awkward and angry over the many "issues" that i carry with me everyday; such as anxiety being a HUGE part of my daily life. i was thinking, why does anxiety have to be considered an "issue" or a "bad" thing to have?...a song "if tragedy's appealing, then disaster is an addiction" spits out the lyrics "anxiety's misleading; it's kosher, yet revealing"- analyzing...


anxiety is a scary scary thing to go thru; you don't know when your breath will be caught, or when your tears stop; but come to think of it, it's not a bad thing. it reveals what i am scared of, what i am most afraid to do, to think, what situations i don't want to be in, and most of all, it shows that i do have emotions. which i find it so hard now a days to separate my emotions and thoughts; but the way i see it now is that anxiety reveals my emotions; emotions mean so much even if they are so little. the little tiny tear that falls from my eyes because i am in an anxiety causing situation-for example, there is one person i don't ever want to run into, an intense anxiety situation, every time i see something that reminds me of that person; friends, a picture, a stupid saying that individual would say to me all the time to try and "appease" me; is me "running into" him. i get anxious; i want to cry-well, i usually do cry. i often thought that having the anxious feeling about that situation was silly, was stupid; but it's not. it reveals so much; reveals the emotion that certain things will always remind of a specific person, that although i may have let "him" go, i haven't let go of the past and that crying is good; anxiety usually helps me to have a good cry; a good cry reveals so much. so much anger, sadness, happiness-EMOTIONS. what i have been trying to feel for so long, i have felt. feeling the emotions and acting accordingly to them has been progress; going from just thoughts-no emotion, to having thoughts and gaining the emotions that i should be getting from the thoughts, is just; beautiful.