: i dream to sleep.

sleeping pills.
sleepy time tea.
warm milk.
warm bath.
music.
reading.
lavender scents.
sleep sound machine.
writing.
meditation.
praying.
praying.
praying.

all of thee above-common treatments for insomnia. my break down;

sleeping pills can only do so much for a short period of time- after a while your body rejects them, they don't work because your body is so use to them; so use to the abuse and poison.
natural remedies-not for me; i often wonder if natural remedies worked why there are so many medications out there; wouldn't one want to go all natural rather then put poison in their body?
music- if only every song didn't remind me of someone or something then i think possibly music would help. and yes, i tried just instrumental, but even the sound of a guitar playing makes me think of a certain memory that i can't erase out of my head.
meditation- just started meditation the other day with my therapist; i think this might be a good tactic to tackle; i found that within meditation i focus more. i am in touch with my mind; at that moment of meditation i find myself not thinking about anything else except that specific quote; focus. i can do it. i didn't think i could focus on just one thought; but i did it, and i will continue to do it until no thoughts are in my mind, and i can sleep soundly and peacefully.
praying- often times i question if there is a "higher power" or not; recently, i have never believed in a higher power so much. he is there. he is with me. and i am going to use him as my rock.

update on my sleep; there is no update. i don't sleep. but i put all my faith in my doctor and myself mostly, that sleep will soon come. like i said before; there are benefits to not sleeping....

for now, i will dream to sleep.