: they all say that i've gone crazy; i say i'm just a normal type of crazy.

who defined "crazy"?


i have told myself that i am crazy for the past year- because my life isn't the same as individuals around me; depression, insomnia, anxiety, different coping mechanisms for my depression and anxiety; a lot of the people i associate with, don't have any of those issues (unless i am unaware of them) and because i am going through it, i have defined myself crazy for so long. but i have been thinking who defined crazy? who literally said it was crazy to go through life a different way then others?

society has such a high standard for being "normal" that if an individual goes off the track for one split second, that person is usually known as "crazy", or some form of crazy, or as simple as i can put it; a failure. but i don't see going off the tracks as failing, i see it as learning.

there is not a day that goes by that i wish i didn't go through have of the bullshit that i have gone through because i often have been ashamed of the fact that i need to see a therapist and a sleep doctor every week, that i have to take medication for anxiety and depression, and sometimes i have to take medication to sleep; but the way i see it NOW, is that if i didn't seek help, go through all of the bullshit, i wouldn't have been able to learn what life is all about; which is generally LIFE. i am not ashamed anymore that i have "problems"; don't we all? i am proud. i am proud that i have sought help; who want's to go through any of this alone? not i. my worst and most shittiest situations have taught me how to live; but mostly, the shittiest situations have made me who i am today; a strong woman. yes, i am getting my masters in social work to be a therapist one day- i often use to think that i would never be a good therapist due to the fact that i have "problems"; but in reality, getting therapy is the only way that i will really learn how to therapize (not a real word, but it's MY word) another person; i will be able to relate, be compassionate, and have a heart. i am proud. i am not ashamed. i will never look back at these moments that made me want to go insane; they all made me who i am. and i am, a woman who is strong.


don't ever watch someone go down; try to help them.
but always remember you can't help an individual who doesn't want help.
you will always become what you despise if you don't change.
if you don't want to change; you'll choke.
choke; you'll fall harder.
breathe; take a chance; change.
always love; for who you love and what you love will make you love yourself more.
be a fighter; fight for what you want and deserve-don't settle.
always, always, ALWAYS, believe that the past and present makes your future.