: blessed..

as i was reading my last post, and the few before that; i realized how blessed i have been. blessed to have been thrown so many curve balls in life to which negative situations arose. but in the end, as i look back, i am so blessed that those curve balls hit my life because then i wouldn't have grown into the person i am today. the person i am today is not the person i was a year ago.

-my mind is stronger, at times i can come off as weak, but i handle things a lot better; -my heart is a bit lighter. i have always been so heartbroken that it felt like a weight was constantly beating up my heart. but now, it's getting lighter and lighter; -i've let go. in the past i could never let things be. i would always dwell and dwell and dwell, but now, i say ta-ta, be gone. for the past is the past and it's in the past for a reason; -my eyes are a bit more clear (not fully, but i'm getting there). for i never saw things the way they were. i would always overanalyze a perfectly good situation and pick it apart to find the "underlying" reason to which it was happening, but i learned that situations arise the way the should and how they should, therefore, i try to see it the way it is;
-and i have been blessed to understand;
understand that i am where i should be in life & i wouldn't change it for the world.