: pain.

when you give somebody your all, and then it's shoved back in your face, how does it make you feel? less worthy of yourself? that you aren't good enough?.. all of the above? how can somebody be so blind to the fact that they could have something so good, yet disregard that thought? is the thought disregarded because that person doesn't want to get hurt? or is the thought disregarded because it isn't even remotely thought about? i remember at times i would disregard the thought of being with somebody who was so great because i didn't want to get hurt, but i can't recall not ever thinking about having a potential relationship with somebody who was so great. thoughts shouldn't be disregarded, in my own opinion. after all, thoughts happen for a reason; so you have a notion of what you want or don't want.

maybe individuals really do disregard their feelings and burry them because they don't want to get hurt; but in the end, aren't you already hurting yourself when you burry your feelings and thoughts? because you aren't being honest and truthful with yourself. i'd say that the "burry my thoughts and feelings" persona has "i am hurting myself" written all over it. as humans we feel that burring our feelings may help us feel less pain, but in reality, the more you burry, the more pain. i've learned recently that holding on to a certain feeling and not speaking my mind in regards to it, hurts me. literally, my heart, mind, soul, body aches from not letting it out. and it took me a while to get this one thought and feeling out, but once it was out, i felt powerful. it's all about being honest and gaining back that power you once lost from that deep hole that you burry your thoughts in.

thoughts and emotions should never be disregarded; even if it takes days, months, or years, always act on them one way or another, or you will constantly live in emotional pain.